Reality bites

Nothing to say
but a million thoughts ponder
everywhere i look
i sit and wonder

Different faces
different places
going in opposite directions
but searching for the same connections

Some find it
but many are lost
some give up
no matter what the cost

Others think they've found it through drugs
or from the company of someone else
also maybe through material wealth

If we learn how to respect and love ourselves
and eachother
and to respect our earth we call our mother

we will no longer feel the need to search out there
it's within us all
just look inside and you will find
your way to escape and deal with it all

The power is in your mind


*age 22*


10/03/03

Do you have...

When you're down
erase that frown
open your eyes
and see what's around

Do you have a bed?
And other creature comforts?
Do you wake up to the smell
of freshly cooked crumpets?

Do you have a fridge?
and a cupboard full of food?
Can you go out and party whenever you're in the mood?

Do you have a good family?
And a few close friends?
People that will be there for you
until the very end

If you have any or all of these
then put a smile on your dial
and maybe you'll realise
that your life is worthwhile

*age 22*

friday 25 october 2002

Why do i feel this way?

Why do I feel this way?
My emotions are very strange
My body feels physically ill
And psychologically deranged

Mood swings from north to south
It seems like every chance they get
My body and mind need some release
They need some sort of outlet

Exaggerating every mood
And prolonging negative thoughts
I don’t know why I torture myself
When all it seems to do is hurt

Detached from the world
Including the people it seems
Everything looks surreal
As though I’m in a dream

I worry about my health everyday
And wonder when I’m going to die
I just hope before I do
I get over this
so I can fulfill my dreams
And live a long, happy, healthy and prosperous life

age 22

1:25am 15/8/02

To Naomi

There is a special bond
that only we can share
the sister love
that will always be there


The kind of closeness
we share together
the love and the trust
we'll have forever


You are very beautiful
and i love you very much
you are my SISTER
and that's something special
no one can touch


We've stuck by each other
through good times and bad
having you as my sister
makes me very glad


I'll always be there for you
and i'll always be true
You are NAOMI
my SISTER
and i very much...


Love You


*Love Harmony*

"IT'S" back!

I’m out there
What feels all alone
Oblivious to my surroundings
Looking for that safe place
Afraid of the unknown

Corrupting thoughts run through my mind
Then the physical symptoms start to roll
The fight is on to save myself
From the fear of losing control

Sweaty palms and shakiness
My heart starts to pound
I’m so scared I’m going to die or pass out
Every minute feels like an hour

Feeling a sense of derealisation
Seeing stationary objects move
Sensitive to any sound and light
My autonomic nervous system sends signals
Telling me that something’s not right

All of a sudden the fear has gone
And the symptoms start to decrease
Worn out from the physical and emotional turmoil
I think I’m ready for some sleep

Age 22
23/7/02

TRANCE

I hear you speak
and i feel sensations run through me
i feel your presence
and everytime i do feel free

You make me feel like no other lover
your warm embrace captures me like no other

Floating through space
dont want to leave this place
Floating through space
i'm in a trance like state

You've captured me with your trance
all i want to do is dance
the only place i feel safe
is in my trance like space

age 21
'2001'

Elee

You are the sunshine of my days
You are the warmth and security of my nights
You are the blossoming of flowers
You are the trickling of a waterfall
You are the sight of a luscious rainforest
You are the twinkle in a star
You are the sound of waves meeting the ocean shore
You are the scent of something natural
You are the sound of music
You are the touch of love
You are beautiful

*18 YRS OLD*
14/3/99

Karma Dog

Happy and vivacious
my little bundle of joy
as he runs around the yard
chewing up a little fluffy toy

But then he finds something a little more exciting
it's yellow, round and small
yes! it's that bloody tennis ball!

As he runs up with the tennis ball
he drops it at my feet
i throw the ball for him and try to have him beat

But Karma dog's to quick for me
as he leaps HIGH up in the air
and lands sturdy on his feet again
waiting for another dare

I throw the ball again for him
but this time all has been done
it's dissapeared amongst some part of the yard
and that's the end of all our fun

Not to worry... thinks little Karma dog
heading off toward the south
and comes running back with a smile on his dial
with a football hanging out of his mouth

Oh darn it! i think
not another ball
does this dog ever stop
he has more energy than any of us at all

Then finally...
i've worn him out
he has a drink of water
finds a spot amongst the grass
slowly closing his eyes and falling asleep
i've tired him out at last

Dedicated to my beautiful dog
KARMA
i love you

age 17
written 26/08/97

We have a right too!

I wrote this poem after watching an Opera Winfrey episode and this particular program was about parents with gay children and how they dis-owned them because they were disgraced by their sexuality.
The children were obviously very upset and wanted re conciliation.
I felt upset for these children and it inspired me to write the following poem.

I personally am not gay, although i have experimented.

What is your problem
why do you say
that being who i am
is wrong in every way?

If you thought i was normal
you'd treat me the same
until the moment you realised
then you put me to shame

Its DISCRIMINATION!

and im treated like a flu to stay away from
why cant you just except me for who i am
and for what i have become

FOR I AM GAY!

And i am proud to say
that i have as many rights as anyone else
So please treat me like im human
share those rights...
dont just keep them for yourself

As i walk down the street
hand in hand with my lover
people all look and stare
but if i was with the opposite sex
they wouldn't notice and wouldn't care

Then there's the anti gay groups
who disdain me from what i believe in
they tell me it's wrong and abnormal
and that i'm involved in some sort of sin

So how do they perceive 'normal'
through fights because of someone else's belief
if we had a right to be who we are
then there wouldn't be so much anger and grief

So this is why i keep it quiet
and keep it within my
it's my sexuality
and im not hurting anyone else

For everyone can be opinionative
and some people do have a nerve
and it's from this
i wish i was 'normal' sometimes
then i'd have the respect i deserve!

written by HARMONY BLYTH
age 15

MONDAY 22/5/95

Mikey

Life without you
Would be like...
Life without flowers
Life without air
Life without the sun
But when i look at you
The flowers bloom
The atmosphere's clean
And the sun comes shining through
Just remember
You're the one
And i'll always love you

written age 16

2/11/96

Reflections

I glance into the candlelight
I think about myself
And the people I care about

About my life
And how much it has changed
And keeps changing

About the important things
And things,
That are just so worthless to argue over.

Written 1996
age 16

MANY MOODS

As i sit here in the darkness

i feel a stream of pain run down my face

As the loneliness increases

i can feel the depression seep in

As the anger destroys me

i become a little some what destructive

As i feel hurt and used

i feel like seeking revenge

As i sit here

and think about how to resolve my problems

nothing seems to work out

or make sense

i can now taste the salt in my tears

as i don't understand why i'm feeling this way

It's times like these

i wish i could escape to...

"the sky of diamonds"

written 15/10/95

age 15

LIFE... (as we know it)

A flower grows
A flower dies
This is when
A flower cries

A new bud is grown
To take it's space
But the first flower
Cannot be replaced

The flower now gone
Is shot up like a dart
And will rest in the heavens
Until it makes a new start

Written age 14
5/12/94

memories

I remember the night
When we first met
It was at a disco
When our eyes had met

We danced together
And held each other tight
Making sure not one of us
Was out of sight

There are photos of us
In the park around flowers
It was so romantic
It brought out all the powers

But now that’s all gone
And so have you
But you remain in my heart
Because I still love you

24/11/93
13 yrs old

the love of all

(my lyrics to Cat Steven's 'Father and son')

Here is you, here is me

and we're standing together

i love you,

you love me and we're happy

Run around, find a place

settle down, take it easy

we're still, we have time

and we both need to be free

One day,

we'll wake up

and decide to get married

if we don't

just be friends

there's alot out there to learn.

When we've found what we need

maybe we'll get together

in a week, we'll go out

and date again.

After that,

it's all gone

i hope to find a good man

so i can

settle in with him.

We'll go out

have some fun

have a drink and then get drunk

we'll get home

go to bed

then have a sleep.

In the morning

we'll wake up

and i know you'll be there to kiss

then i'll get up

make some coffee just for you and me

After that,

i'll lie back down

and fall asleep with you

and i knew in my dreams

i'd wake up with you too.

written on 16/9/89

age 9